I believe that is a question many of us have placed in front of ourselves many times during our lives. Including me.
I know my name is Tea, I was born and raised in Finland, umm couple of years ago. I know I have a blondish hair, sometimes it can be even dark brown, orange, very blond and in the future maybe even pink, I have blue/green eyes and I am pretty (at least I consider myself that way). Those are the visible qualities that one can easily see. However there is so much more than that. I have also the unseen side, which includes my inner beliefs, values, expectations, and my thoughts, and based on all these factors I tend to do my decisions in life. Not to forget about my heart and intuition, which I had learned to listen a lot more as ‘an adult”, however I will always be a child at heart.
When I was younger I came across to the fact that many of decisions I had done were based on cultural expectations, other people’s beliefs and values, and that this was not the correct way to bring me the needed happiness and well being. I struggled many years around questions “who am I”, “what do I really want”, and “what is the life purpose”. Nevertheless all this time I was assured that there has to be more than this.
When we are young we tend to go more with the flow, it is a time most of us are still searching for ourselves and we are more dependent on other people’s opinions and reactions towards ourselves; all this is affecting consciously or unconsciously to the quality of our decisions. The quality of our decisions I mean the struggle to separate our real wants and needs those around us.
Life seems like a carousel of infinite possibilities; only I seem to be the only one for not knowing exactly what to want from life, and which direction would be the best option for me to go.
Well many times I didn’t. I realized this afterwards when my true inner compass, heart, was pulling me to go to the opposite direction. Sometimes making a U-turn wasn’t easy but luckily enough I have had more days in my life to try again. Little by little I have been able to direct myself to the direction of my true desires. It is the direction where my heart wants me to go.
It has not necessarily been an easy road, but that’s why we are here for, to find our deepest calling in life, our life purpose, and our true happiness.
In the coming blog posts I will tackle even more the word “happiness”, and how it would be possible for you to find that little inner compass and sparkle within you and follow your heart and dreams.
“Dreams, the harder it seems; you know that is the direction you have to go.” -Unknown
Life is a journey, just take the first step, and remember the place we are at the moment is the place we are meant to be in this very moment. Just take a deep breath, and relax.
Much Love and Light in our days X